Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Raspberry Cheesecake Truffles

Cooking Classy: Raspberry Cheesecake Truffles: Raspberry Cheesecake is definitely one of my favorite desserts, it's simply divine.  The berry and cream cheese combination is amazing.  I ...

I'm also making these! LOL

almond cinnamon truffles!

Everyday Emotion: Truffles. Almonds. Cinnamon.: Hello sunny saturday! I've got a little sweetness for you - truffles with almonds and cinnamon :-) Happy weekend to all of you! ...

OMG I'm on a truffle binge right now and I'm totally going to make these next time i'm off from work!

Friday, November 16, 2012

Update for Depressed.

Well me and DB actually got into a big fight where we were actually angry and didn't want to speak with each other. My boyfriend claims he doesn't hold sentimental value to anything but he does. Example his necklace. But anyways, he didn't understand why this simple ring was so important to me so I told him he must not care and some many other things that offended him. The next day we talked about it even though he didn't want to speak with me. I wasn't really in the mood to talk to him either since I took it as being selfish. He saw me as materialistic. I told him he could have bought me a 25 cent ring and I would have worn it till my finger turned green ect.

Long story short, we ordered our rings. He is very much in love with his. Mine should be here tomorrow. I cannot wait. We picked entirely different rings than the ones we were going to get. He got a silver one with gold rims. And I'm getting a silver one with a diamond in the middle. I like this better.

DB told me to stop thinking so low of myself. That I am an amazing person and I didn't need a ring as proof that he loved me. :< I know, but we've been dating for 2 years I want some kind of reassurance that I am not wasting my time y'know? I want to know that someday down the line he will propose to me. I told him my greatest fear is that we will never marry and one day he will just walk out on me and marry some little hot blond girl stating the entire time he knew I wasn't the one, just a piece of ass. So this ring was very important to me. I can wait as long as he feels he needs to know he's ready to marry me, but I need the reassurance. I think every woman does when she's investing all of her feelings into a man. It is scary. I don't think he understands because he knows how I feel about him, I never let him wonder about my feelings. He knows I want to marry him. He has nothing to worry about.

 But on a happier note. Going to have something shiny on my finger soon

Friday, November 9, 2012

Depressed

Well looks like me and DB aren't getting promise rings after all, because of this
"so you wunt to gimem a gift but you want me to buy one in return, i thought you wanted to get them"

Like a month and a half ago I asked if he wanted to get promise rings to be a symbol of our commitment. And he said sure you have been asking for one for quite some time now. I told him I wanted to get him one too because we are long distance and it would be nice if he could look at his finger and say my girlfriend loves me.

 Well I canceled the order on his ring. The ring wasn't even that much. with shipping and handling it came to a grand total of 11 dollars. So i don't know what the problem was. That hurt my feelings so much. I don't know if I can even talk to him for a while. It just feels like he doesn't love me the way i love him. That he will never think of me as wife material. Never.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Refund!

So I've been waiting on this refund for a while now. Sadly I won't get to spend any of it on myself. I have to pay my credit card back and buy insulin pump supplies with it. But I am happy none the less. Me and DB have been talking about getting promise rings. And He finally got his finger sized. Took him a month to do it. The rings we're getting are very us. They are titanium with a blue ring around it with a zircon in the middle. I didn't want us to spend a whole lot on these. If we get married I want the money to go to those rings. Those rings will be white gold with real diamonds. I am really happy. DB's promise is really cute too. Like his better than mine. I said, I would remain faithful and devoted and love him no matter how far we are from each other. He said being faithful was too easy that he wanted to promise me better times. Kinda a tear jerker because this past year has been so hard, I have been so lonely and miserable. I love this man so much...

Got more good news. Me and the mom have been on the waiting list for hud housing and we are finally #12 on the list. We will be moving soon I'm sure. I will finally have money to get a bus pass every month and pay off these credit card bills and do extra little things that I haven't been able to do for so long. I can get new pants, I apparently grew and my pants are all high watered now. The sleeves on my shirts are short too, so I really need new clothes that fit my new body. I need new shoes for work that I've been meaning to do for a while. I am excited. I can't wait for that to happen. I will also be graduating in May. YAY I finally got my AS degree!!! 

I am ready for this move in May. I am moving back to California to be with my boyfriend. We are going to go to California State University: Chico Campus. I am excited. I have some friends who live in the area. I really have missed my friends very much. When I get there we have to have a party. I need to see everyone. sigh! my boyfriend really really misses me. I feel sad I can't come sooner. sigh! if only I had taken the right science class in highschool. :( sorry DB the science class I need requires me to come to class once a week even if it is an online class. We will be together soon.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Where to Start?

OK, well I haven't been posting on here for what feels like forever. I'm going to be getting some insurance soon so I can see a doctor. YAY! Lost my financial aid last Spring and I'm just getting it back. I am sooo happy about that. The boyfriend made it back from deployment, but with bad news that he couldn't reenlist. I am happy that he couldn't, but damn life is gonna be interesting...He moved to California. That was a sad goodbye. Got to meet his dad and step mom though. HAHA! they're pretty cool actually. DB says they drive him crazy.

I'm still here in hell hole Georgia. Hate it here with a passion... I cannot wait to just pack up and leave. Just a couple more months I guess. I can live, but damn I'm quitting my job at Kroger.

Update: DB says he loves me on the regular. Pretty sweet huh? Ill be back to actually write in this.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Very Blah Indeed

So Valentine's Day was a bust. My boyfriend is so clueless sometimes. I wonder if he's ever had women around him. Well he has a mom and had a sister. I don't know about this boy sometimes. I was very angry with him yesterday. I told him he was stupid lol. But then I calmed down and apologized to him and told him I loved him and happy valentine's day. Then he stopped ignoring me; he's been ignoring me these past couple of days he's been back from pre-deployment training. But yeah we started talking.  Later that day my sister asked me if I got anything for Valentine's day so she could rub it in that I didn't. Instead of saying I got nothing I told her me and my boyfriend had a good conversation today....She said "aww!" I asked my boyfriend, "what should i say i got today?" and he said, "a ticket"
first off i was borderline kidding and wow that's awesome. Earlier that day i told him i wanted to see him before he deployed that i was willing to help pay expenses on his end or pay half on a plane ticket for me to go up there. So i didn't think i would get anything. He's not the romantic type so i wasn't expecting anything...that's horrible.

But now my dilemma is that is feel bad for being such a bitch to him these past couple of day, because he didn't have to buy me a plane ticket. sigh! what to do

Thursday, February 2, 2012

New Year

Well we all know it is 2012 now. Can you believe it. I can't. I'm going to be 23 years old this year!!!! WOW! I am also graduating college with my Associates and moving out for the first time. I know I have a lot of post about how my boyfriend didn't express how he feels about me. After our almost break up in October everything has really changed in him. I'm not sure if I have become more understanding or he has become more affectionate. Either one, we are working hard for each other. Recently I was on the phone with him and we were saying goodbye before he left for Pre-Deployment training. I told him that I loved him. Then out of nowhere. I usually don't ask him if he loves me too, I did. And he said that he did love me. That was a very special moment. It made me feel like all these months with him were worth all the pain. I told him goodnight and to work hard.

He is currently out to sea. He will be deploying in March. Not sure when, but I'm not allowed to tell anyways. This time is going to be hard. But its going to be easy too. This will be our second deployment together. It won't be that bad. When he comes home I can go see him no problem because i was graced with a job finally. Honestly I have grown so much from knowing him. I am not that naive little kid anymore.

I have said countless times that I love him more than he knows. I think Scott knows. Maybe he's the one who loves me more than I know. This man is wonderful. He's the sunshine on the cloudy gloomy day. But enough about him. Lets talk about me!

I talked with my dad a while ago. He said when I come to california, he was going to help me get medical insurance so I wouldnt have to worry anymore. His wife would help me to get a job and set me up to be on my own. I was very pleased with this. Me and Scott haven't gotten to talk extensively about all this yet, but we are defiantly seeking moving in together soon. I am excited for myself. I have overcome so much in these pass couple years.

2012 is a New Year