Good Morning

Thought I'd write something before getting off to work. School is pretty much kicking my ass. I really hope I pass my mid terms lol. Work has been shitter than usual lately. I just have no desire to go anymore. I hate my job entirely. I'm glad the move date is getting closer, though my boyfriend doesn't seem to be doing anything to get me out there. Like finding a job and an apartment for us. I hope in these two months he has left that he will surprise me with both. I really really do. I have no friends whom I can even stay with. Sigh!!

I also hope me and my mom move into this low income housing so I can start saving money. I could save $200-$250 a month if we move. That's a lot! plus the money I get for myself. Sigh! I really want to pay off my credit card!

Well I guess I'm gonna head out. Talk to you later!

Raspberry Cheesecake Truffles

Cooking Classy: Raspberry Cheesecake Truffles: Raspberry Cheesecake is definitely one of my favorite desserts, it's simply divine.  The berry and cream cheese combination is amazing.  I ...

I'm also making these! LOL

almond cinnamon truffles!

Everyday Emotion: Truffles. Almonds. Cinnamon.: Hello sunny saturday! I've got a little sweetness for you - truffles with almonds and cinnamon :-) Happy weekend to all of you! ...

OMG I'm on a truffle binge right now and I'm totally going to make these next time i'm off from work!

Update for Depressed.

Well me and DB actually got into a big fight where we were actually angry and didn't want to speak with each other. My boyfriend claims he doesn't hold sentimental value to anything but he does. Example his necklace. But anyways, he didn't understand why this simple ring was so important to me so I told him he must not care and some many other things that offended him. The next day we talked about it even though he didn't want to speak with me. I wasn't really in the mood to talk to him either since I took it as being selfish. He saw me as materialistic. I told him he could have bought me a 25 cent ring and I would have worn it till my finger turned green ect.

Long story short, we ordered our rings. He is very much in love with his. Mine should be here tomorrow. I cannot wait. We picked entirely different rings than the ones we were going to get. He got a silver one with gold rims. And I'm getting a silver one with a diamond in the middle. I like this better.

DB told me to stop thinking so low of myself. That I am an amazing person and I didn't need a ring as proof that he loved me. :< I know, but we've been dating for 2 years I want some kind of reassurance that I am not wasting my time y'know? I want to know that someday down the line he will propose to me. I told him my greatest fear is that we will never marry and one day he will just walk out on me and marry some little hot blond girl stating the entire time he knew I wasn't the one, just a piece of ass. So this ring was very important to me. I can wait as long as he feels he needs to know he's ready to marry me, but I need the reassurance. I think every woman does when she's investing all of her feelings into a man. It is scary. I don't think he understands because he knows how I feel about him, I never let him wonder about my feelings. He knows I want to marry him. He has nothing to worry about.

 But on a happier note. Going to have something shiny on my finger soon

My Moving Ticker

Depressed

Well looks like me and DB aren't getting promise rings after all, because of this
"so you wunt to gimem a gift but you want me to buy one in return, i thought you wanted to get them"

Like a month and a half ago I asked if he wanted to get promise rings to be a symbol of our commitment. And he said sure you have been asking for one for quite some time now. I told him I wanted to get him one too because we are long distance and it would be nice if he could look at his finger and say my girlfriend loves me.

 Well I canceled the order on his ring. The ring wasn't even that much. with shipping and handling it came to a grand total of 11 dollars. So i don't know what the problem was. That hurt my feelings so much. I don't know if I can even talk to him for a while. It just feels like he doesn't love me the way i love him. That he will never think of me as wife material. Never.

Refund!

So I've been waiting on this refund for a while now. Sadly I won't get to spend any of it on myself. I have to pay my credit card back and buy insulin pump supplies with it. But I am happy none the less. Me and DB have been talking about getting promise rings. And He finally got his finger sized. Took him a month to do it. The rings we're getting are very us. They are titanium with a blue ring around it with a zircon in the middle. I didn't want us to spend a whole lot on these. If we get married I want the money to go to those rings. Those rings will be white gold with real diamonds. I am really happy. DB's promise is really cute too. Like his better than mine. I said, I would remain faithful and devoted and love him no matter how far we are from each other. He said being faithful was too easy that he wanted to promise me better times. Kinda a tear jerker because this past year has been so hard, I have been so lonely and miserable. I love this man so much...

Got more good news. Me and the mom have been on the waiting list for hud housing and we are finally #12 on the list. We will be moving soon I'm sure. I will finally have money to get a bus pass every month and pay off these credit card bills and do extra little things that I haven't been able to do for so long. I can get new pants, I apparently grew and my pants are all high watered now. The sleeves on my shirts are short too, so I really need new clothes that fit my new body. I need new shoes for work that I've been meaning to do for a while. I am excited. I can't wait for that to happen. I will also be graduating in May. YAY I finally got my AS degree!!! 

I am ready for this move in May. I am moving back to California to be with my boyfriend. We are going to go to California State University: Chico Campus. I am excited. I have some friends who live in the area. I really have missed my friends very much. When I get there we have to have a party. I need to see everyone. sigh! my boyfriend really really misses me. I feel sad I can't come sooner. sigh! if only I had taken the right science class in highschool. :( sorry DB the science class I need requires me to come to class once a week even if it is an online class. We will be together soon.